I've been spending a lot of considerable effort avoiding writing. The thought of trying to finish my ending has been stressing me out and even depressing me. The more I thought about having to re-write the ending the more I wanted to avoid it because of all the stress it reminded me of. The words I'd told a friend still ring clearly in my ears, and have stopped me in fear of finishing it for the sole fact that I'm worried even with fixing it will still (I quote myself here):
"read like a D+ movie made by the Sci-Fi channel."
|SHARKNADO!!! Pretty sure this is where my ending belongs.....|
Honestly I hate the fact that when I write in this blog about my own writing all I can really do is complain about my fear of writing the ending. Honestly, half the time I don't even know if the things I'm writing here get read or are even helpful or entertaining! I'm pretty sure you have way better blogs and lives to follow than an 'almost' author. One who can't start another book until she finishes the one she's working on. Man, I think you guys need a drink more than I do!
But today I had a break through. Not in writing, but in attitude and mindset. Another factor that's been stressing and depressing me is the fact that my life seems to be going no where. I'm the proverbial car stuck in the mud spinning its wheels. And then I received news that rather kick my butt into gear made me feel more depressed about my life and writing. Except today. Today things got better.
|That's totally me. Totally. You like my robe?|
the day, which was self-improvement, a thought floated by. It said to me, "be kind to yourself. Why are you being so hard on yourself? Why are you putting so much pressure and focus on the ending being 150% perfect?"
Woah. Wooooooah. The
Or else what?
So here's what I'm going to do. I'm going to write. I'm going to be nice to myself and tell myself to not worry about deadlines. To write because it's fun and you want to tell this story. But I'm going to write and I'm going to finish this ending when it want's to be finished.
I suppose my main message to all of you hopeful writers and already published writers is this: Be nice to yourself. I think we all forget to do that as writers. We're so concerned and focused on what's wrong with our books that we forget to be nice to ourselves sometimes. So don't worry about deadlines, don't put negative pressure on yourself. Take a deep breath and then another. And remember that you'll finish when you need to. I know I will! OR, you could always take Nick's advice as pointed out below:
Also, you could just meditate! Maybe
the writing gods some good advice will come to you too!